blushing when writing this.
i personally thank him because reminded me more than twice to go through all the questions before i repeat the same silly mistakes again and again.well, you know what i mean.even if, i was so nervous to answer the quiz that time, but the relieve was at me when i managed to flip onto the other page.of course, i thank him again.
if not,surely i'll be the laughing material for the next class.and of course,being the clown to be laughed at again and again.at first, i'm not used to it.but, eventually i started to fit into the ambience for being the crowd-puller.and it's because of him.
of course, deep down i'm embarassed if my name is mentioned in class because i'm a very not- so-popular and famous student to be mentioned.the pride is at me actually.and i don't take it, just for my laughing material but i take it as my indirect source of paradigm uplift.i do feel that, i have to do something for not being the clown in class.and of course,i have to prove that, there's something i can do to take the pride of being clown, to the pride of getting significant.it took me quite a lot of sacrifices to transform myself from zero to hero.God,it’s not easy to do something completely out of the norm.i once took one step to be different.i was getting my hair tied in a ponytail just for few days(God!have done it and embarassed by him again,because participated in Jangan Lupa Lirik in one particular day.will never do it again), wish to get great marks,wear wedges and kebaya and there i'll go.sounds like a desperado, but sincerely if i have the chance,i'll do it.hopefully,i will turn out to be drop-dead gorgeous if i really do it.do you think i dare to do it?no laa.never.
it's not that i'm mad in some sort of way.but, it's just that i'm embarrassed in his class.considering myself as a 20 -year-old student, i should say that, i'm totally embarrassed if i get excessive exposure to my surrounding.i don't know how to explain it in my own words.to make it simpler, it sounds like this.maybe because, i'm just a plain student and there's nothing so special about myself that drives people in curiosity.and that correctly explains why i should feel peculiar about instant fame.but i think, everybody knows it.it's true that i still managed to laugh to death and still focusing in his class.but, deep down,i'm still not used to be the centre of attention.with my freezy hair like seaweed and lanky proportion,i don't feel the need to get noticed.let just my other famous friends have them.let them have it.there's so much to say about this.but, i just want to share some of my thoughts regarding this.and still, i don't get the idea why i should be in the centre of attention.i'm just an average jane with little pennies in my pocket.i can't sing like a songbird,i'm not pretty like Cinderella and i'm not as genius as ayam tambatan.but, afterall, i love to be in his class.and because of his originality in his words and the acting drama he done to make me understand about the whole complex subject, it makes me feel more to respect him.there's nothing i can say for not to like him.how can i say no to someone who did the whole dance routine and amusing facial expression over there just to make sure i'm not blur with the Hibbeler?i completely respect you.and i'm not angry with you at all.that's my ultimate promise.i love all your jokes and you are just one of a kind.
and to sir, with love.
