i thought i'm good,but i'm not

i actually wonder,if there are 3 things that i can wish for,what are they will gonna be?maybe i'll go for:

• beauty
• fortune
• intelligence

unfortunately,i'm sure that i will never ever got that chance in reality.perhaps,there are no one in this world deserve perfection.even,siti nurhaliza has the torn in her flawless life.the fact that he got married to Datuk K!it's actually the biggest misstep she has taken so far.and it was the talk of the town eversince her wedding event was held.and i was one of the gossip girls catching up every inch about the fairytale wedding.yup.i just love gossip.girls just love it.

sorry folks.i don't wanna talk about gossip here.but i just wanna say,if there'll be one thing that i can change on myself,i'll change.maybe for certain people,they just be grateful for what they already have,but for me if there's certain thing that can make me better,why don't i just go for it?i don't want to say i'm selfish but there's a part of me that i just hate to have.and my wish is that,i want to lead my life without thinking what people think of me.coz i just love to do thing and put the consideration on people's perception.it's hard to please everyone in every single thing.but, i'm the one who just love to put the matter on it.there's so much time i kept repeating that ,'just do whatever i want'.but i am a failure in doing that.that scares me so much because i'll feel the pressure after that.and i'll do nothing.it's hard to change that attitude.i'm not that sensitive nor that insensitive.in sense of living in this college life,that will probably be a barrier for me to go far.and i just hate to say that i'm an introvert person because i don't.

people near me may think,this will never make sense to them.but,it's important for me to change because i know my limitation.at first,i thought this is just a wonder.but the minute i think about it,i just knew it straight away.i have to change.i've experienced so many dramas just because of this 'kind' of attitude.seriously,i suffer because of this 'too much to care' attitude.if i can change it.i will.for the sake of myself.and to lead a normal life just like everybody else.

hopefully.